My heart goes out to you! You are a soldier. As embarrassed and ashamed as you may be, you had enough heart
to express yourself honestly and openly. I have to honor that! At the same time, you need to pick your head up. Don't be embarrassed
and ashamed! Life happens! We can either let it beat us up or learn from it and immediately block the negativity when we recognize it
the next time around!
Redd's Vocabulary:
FORGIVE - to grant relief from payment; to stop the feeling of anger or rage toward the party who offended; to release from a fault without keeping a record of the fault.
See, my friend... if it still "hurts like hell," you haven't arrived at the place of forgiveness. You need to [first] genuinely forgive this person to the point that it doesn't affect your life the way it does right now. Then and only then will the healing process really begin! Write the "debt" off and give it to the universe. Let it blow in the wind, never to return your way.
"HOW CAN I MOVE ON?"
The way to move on is to first acknowledge that this happened to you and CAN'T be changed. Then you have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and walk forward in a new direction without looking backward. You will actually need to give yourself a fresh start. Next, fill the void [in your heart] by surrounding yourself with people who love you and want the best for you. Embrace that love and love them back. Allow people who really care about you to be there with you and for you! Also, focus on working hard or going to school. Find other activities to occupy your time and mind. Finally, give thanks for life! Even though your situation has changed a bit, you are still alive to tell the story and maybe even prevent others from making similar mistakes! LIFE is still GOOD!
From my lips to your soul...
Redd