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ebonymale2
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Posted: Wed Nov 15th, 2006 04:05 pm |
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"Do you not know that your body is the temple (the very sanctuary) of the HOLY SPIRIT who lives within you, whom you have received [as a gift] from GOD? You are not your own; You were bought with a price [purchased with a preciousness and paid for, made His own]. So then, honor God and bring glory to Him in your body." 1 CORINTHIANS 6:19-20
Here's the story:
I really LOVE someone who I was in a relationship with for a year and three (3) months. Our relationship ended (a few months ago) because of bad communication (sometime, none at all), infidelity, and lies. My friends asked, "Why are you faithful to someone who treats you that way?" My response was usually a play on the word "LOVE!" I thought that this person loved me too. Now, I'm not so sure (...looking back). Hindsight [evaluating in past tense] tends to be much clearer than sight [present tense] and foresight [tryng to see into the future]!  think part of me wished this person would one day evolve and grow... leaving the bad communication skills, infidelity, and lies behind. I realize that I can't change ANYONE, nor is it my desire to do so. The relationship is OVER, but for some reason, I still wanted to be with this person (after all the things they did to me). I had to examine myself because I needed to know why I was drawn to someone who treated me so badly (and continues to do so). In my desire to LOVE this person the way I wanted to be loved, I started losing my honor, my dignity... MYSELF!
Trash:
I had to ask myself... Am I trash or treasure (in my own mind)? Trash is something worth little or nothing. It is empty... inferior. I allowed myself to be treated as trash... even though I can NEVER be trash! I allowed another human being to strip me down to nothing. That is why I attempted to be satisfied in an unhealthy relationship. That is why I was always trying to fix everything while the other party did nothing to help. I emptied myself mentally and emotionally... only to let this twisted "love" fill me with apprehension, tension, pain, paranoia, negitivity, and all of the things I wouldn't usually allow into my space. Then again - before this relationship - considered myself to be TREASURE!
Treasure:
I had to re-evaluate my life and figure out who Redd actually is! I am definitely TREAURE! Treasure is something (or someone) of GREAT VALUE. Treasure is esteemed as RARE or PRECIOUS! I was like a diamond covered by dirt and coal. Once the dirt is removed and the coal is cut away, the diamond surfaces. It emerges with brilliance and takes its place among the most valued of jewels! I found myself again! The dirt has been removed. The coal has been cut away. I resurface as a jewel in the crown of the one who created me!
Redd's Philosophy...
I place the highest value on myself! I am a rare, precious being of great value. I respect myself. I love myself. Only someone of EQUAL value can have a place in the treasure chest where I reside! Because of the value I place on my physical body, I will only be physically intimate in the confines of a monogomous relationship with the jewel who choses to be with ONLY me! I will only be touched or handled by someone who has not been handled by many people! Because of the value I place on my mental body, I will only converse with those who value themselves enough to think, speak, and express themselves in a positive way. Because of the value I place on my emotional body, I can only open myself to people who know how to LOVE in a healthy way. I will only be embraced by the LOVE that springs from a solid, stable, supportive friendship. I can only pour myself out to someone who will know how to receive me and knows how to pour themself into my cup as well! Because of the value I place on my spiritual body, I will only connect with people who can recognize the BEAUTY of the world and the BEAUTY in the world! I will dance with people who find the GOOD in all things and avoid the BAD at all costs. I want to be in the company of people who cause me to think positively, speak gently, see intuitively, and LOVE unconditionally!
Peace and LOVE...
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